a wise woman told me...

more and more i'm coming to realize that maybe me and Fate weren't meant to be, if we were, this wouldn't be happening right now. Something that happened to me today solidified this thought even more.

My nanay called me today and told me how much she missed me and everything. Then she asked about him and how he was doing. I told her that we broke up; she's the only one in my family who now knows. She was surprised and she asked who broke up with who, i told her the truth - it was mutual, i just spared her the details, she doesn't need to know. She asked me if i was devestated, i told her sort of.

The first thing she told me was that no matter how sad i get, to not just run off with any guy because i need the time to just be with myself. She told me that she used to pray for me and him. She said that she would pray to God that if me and him were meant to be together, to make it so we would. She told me that she is very sad to hear that we're no longer together, but that maybe this is God's way of telling Fate and I that we aren't meant to be.

Damn. I really wish it wasn't so. Fate even told me that he has a "feeling" that there will be something in the future. It's a wonderful thought and deep down inside my heart i wish that it does happen. But really, if you think about it, how likely is it that 2 people are to meet up agani, fall back into love, and live happily ever after? Its so rare. Could i ever be that lucky? luck hasn't been following me lately so its hard to think that it'll come back may way. What are the chances that one day, he'll come across my picture and he'll think of me and look me up in the phonebook. What are the chances that one day i'm at the office, and i'm told that there is a man waiting to see me by the front desk. What are the chances that we see eachother, hang out, have an amazing second-first kiss, fall in love, get married, have children and grow old together? it just doesn't happen. its not meant to be. maybe for someone else, but not for me. not ever.